Gone are those carefree days when I lived like I was going to live forever…
Now I know what it feels like to think “It’s time for me to go”.
I’ve lost track of how many times things got so bad–that I was so exhausted, emaciated, impotent, defenseless, helpless, alone and in so much pain that I WISH my life expectancy was zero…
… just so I could put all the pain, grief, anxiety, difficult decisions, and pressure to be a hero behind me forever. (Don’t worry. I’m still here and still have lots to live for.)